What is seen in war does not haunt a man as much as what he does in war. War brings out the best in men, sure, but it also brings out the evil bits as well. Man carries out actions in war he did not know he was capable of. It is those things a man must spend his life coming to terms with. A man thinks himself honorable until he is not. Society lifts him up as a brave hero while the evil he has committed eats him up.

This story is my way of dealing with my inner demons. It is my way to process the evil I have done. This story is not meant to dishonor the brave men which have served - and there are many. This story is meant to shine a light on the darkness people don't like to expose. War is a complex beast. History will lift up certain men and heroes, and others as villains. In reality, they are both.

This is a story of me as the villain.